Hello Everyone,
I am sorry but this past week has been extremely stressful and painful for me so I am going to vent a little bit at first. Last week I had a house fire and lost most of my possessions. At 40 years old and no renters insurance since I recently moved that is devastating for me. I am trying to rebound back and apply my exercises and knowledge from this class into my personal life.
Then today I went to Wal-Mart and was waiting in the truck on my husband and I seen this Vietnamese man come out with his small child and I could tell she was sick. A few moments later he came back running by my truck back towards the store yelling for help. I grabbed my purse and took off running inside. The little girl was not breathing, non responsive, and drueling out her mouth. I took her into my arms and gave her to small breaths and praise God she started breathing but was still non responsive. By the time the ambulance got there the little girl was trying to come around, grabbing ahold of me, but her eyes were still rolled back in her head. I do not know what happened after that because she left in route to the hospital. Please pray for her and her family as her father was about to go crazy. At the time I did not let it affect me but a few minutes later I just started crying feeling her pain and urgency need of care. Sorry I am still emotional about it.
Wow the Universal Loving Kindness exercise this week was great. This was a great opportunity for me to look at the needs of others. I guess I enjoyed this as I do not like to see other suffer physically, emotionally, or spiritually. I would rather suffer than someone else. It made me feel like I had the knowledge and abilities to help others to experience integral health with the knowledge I have learned in this and other classes. It took the focus off of ourselves and placed in on others and helping them.
The Integral Assessment process made me discover my need to look at the psychospiritual aspects of my life and make some changes. I need to really take a look at what motivates me and why and see if I am where I want to be in that area of my life. As I spent sometime reflecting I can tell that I need further development in this area. On the cognitive level I realized that I am stuck in the reactive stage of development. This is partly due to the fact that I have built up anger, hatred, grudges, and ill feelings that I need to let go of. I am always on the defense when people say things to me. I do not handle criticism constructively, learn from it, and have that help me further develop. I am too reactive. The emotional development needs worked on since I have uncontrolled anger, fear, jealousy, and other reactive emotions. Some exercises or activities that I can use to grow towards greater wellness includes meditation, goal setting, forgiveness, subtle mind exercise, self reflection, spiritual practices, mind training, coping skills, loving kindness exercise, and physical exercise.
Ann,
ReplyDeleteTo say the least, that is a lot to go through in one week. I am speechless for a bit. I wanted to cry with you. Having a house fire is to much but to add what you did for that little girl.... I believe we are put in places often times to help other people wheather it is to just give a friendly smile or to save one's life. It is okay to experience feelings of anger, sadness, quietness these are actually good for our body as long as it is controlled and we do not live in these emotions.
I read your profile to the side and it sounds like you are a wonderful person. I love the bullmastiffs, they are a really neat dog. I work with OT and PT and I have to say you do a remarkable job!
Casey,
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for the response. I believe that God does put us in places sometimes where we are needed and I just thank God for whatever reason that day that I stayed out in the truck where I was able to see this man's need for help. I am doing better emotionally now. I just really worry about the little girl and hope that she is okay.
Yes I love my job and look forward to helping the children everyday. I pray every morning that God will use my abilities and let me touch the live of at least one person that day. If I do that then it has been a good day. God bless you and thanks for the comment
Hi Ann,
ReplyDeleteWow, I am so sorry that you had a house fire my heart goes out to you and your family. I will pray for this little girl and her family and I will pray for you and your family as well. I can see how this experience played a role in your life we are put in someone's life for a reason we go through trails and tribulations that we have to endure whether it's good or bad. I want to thank GOD that you were there at that moment for that little girl! Love you Ann (:
Ann...my heart is so with you right now and so are my prayers. I will focus on you the next time I practice the loving kindness exercise. Hoping that at the very least you can feel peace from love your classmates are feeling for you right now during this time.
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