Sunday, October 17, 2010

unit 4

Hello everyone,
I had a difficult time with this exercise.  I tried it on two occasions and truly had a hard time getting the full benefits of the exercises on the track.  I plan to try doing this again and see if I can feel the benefits.  For me the loving and kindness practices appear to be helpful for me with relaxing and making me feel more positive about myself.  This is something that I am trying to apply with my fiance since he seems to be the one that I have the most difficulty with because I am nice all day at work to others and when I come home it is like I do not have the kindness left in me anymore.  This is something that I truly need to change for the well being of our relationship and myself as well.
One reason that I feel this exercise is difficult for me is because I am a bitter person with some people and I  cannot forgive them for what they have done to me.  Spiritually this is something that I need to continue working on.  I know with the Lord's help I can learn to forgive as truly I am the one who suffers from this bitterness not the people that I am bitter towards.  Please everyone pray for me that I will learn to let go. Have a great week

5 comments:

  1. Hi Singlecoop32,
    You said you are a bitter person with some people and you can not forgive them! This bitterness that's in your heart may be the reason you and your fiance are not getting along like you should (because of the bitterness in your heart) I used to be just like that bitter and angry all the time but I had to pray and ask God to take that away from me, a friend of mine told me that if I carrying that kind of negative stuff in my heart it will weigh me down and it takes a lot of energy from you. It's not good for your heart health mind body or soul, we have to forgive people even if we don't want to because God forgives us over and over again. If we don't forgive than God wont forgive us. I will pray for you that God gives you the strength to be stronger than you know you already are. I know you can do this I love you and be strong in Jesus! Have a blessed week!

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  2. Ms. Banks,
    Thank you so much. I truly need the prayer and hope that some day I can find it in my heart to forgive these people. Hearing their names makes me instantly angry and I wish that I was not like that. I had a pastor tell me one time to let go of all the anger that I carry around with me and I would be closer with the Lord and that surprised me that he knew that about me without me telling him. Thanks again and have a blessed week

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  3. Hi singlecoop32,

    I carried that bitterness for years. It seems difficult to let it go especially when you didn't deserve to be treated bad. It was my courses at Kaplan plus scripture that made me realize what I was doing. Whatever the reason for the bitterness. We feel the affect of it. It works on our systems and destroys our health. In the midst of the memories coming back, I think of the things to be grateful for. I play praise music during my aerobic activities. It is amazing how difficult it is to keep angry after a good workout. This too shall pass! We deserve better. Throw up the bitteress spirit in a sea of forgeting!

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  4. Hello,

    I read and thought about what you said about being bitter. I as the same way with my sister for a number of years. Though I still do not speak to her, I am no longer bitter. I have forgiven her and moved on. This does not mean that I have to talk to her, or even that I have to reach out to her it simply means I am no longer carrying the anger. Maybe you can try just letting it go. Mending fences with the person does not seem to be the point, it really is a matter of letting it go for yourself.

    With regard to this weeks exercise I had a hard time with it as well. I could not keep an image in my head when I did get one, and a other points I got no image at all. My mind was focused as long as Dacher was talking, a soon as the sound of the water took over my mind was of and running.

    Good Post,
    Trish

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  5. HI Ann,
    I thought the loving-kindness was quite helpful. like you, I have a hard time of letting go of a few things, however I believe taking baby steps are beneficial to one's healing. I'm still doing my baby steps and sometimes it does feel like one step forward and two steps back on occasions, but in the long run you benefit from it. these exercises are really helpful I believe, and I know in time you will think so as well... take the baby steps... i've been holding on for over 20 years the hurt and sometimes anger with the person who killed my brother, finally my family are one step closer to letting go and feeling inner peace, and possibly forgiveness... that one is a BIG ONE to swallow and may take more time. But Like I said taking baby steps may get you there..good luck sweetie.. Kathy

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